She looks at him differently now.
Not with love. Not even with anger.
With searching.

She’s scanning his eyes, his words, his body language — desperate to find something. Anything. Some flicker of remorse that matches the magnitude of her pain. She’s not asking for much — just for him to get it. To understand what he’s shattered.

And he knows it.

He knows she’s aching for him to fall apart. To drop the defenses, let the shame flood in, and meet her in the wreckage. To show her that he’s not just sorry for getting caught — but crushed by what he’s done to her. To them.

But he can’t.
Not yet.

He watches her cry, scream, collapse — and he feels it in his chest. The guilt, the panic, the self-loathing. But instead of falling to his knees, instead of reaching for her with truth and brokenness, he freezes. Or he argues. Or he shuts down completely.

She thinks he doesn’t care.
But the truth is, he cares too much — and not in the way she needs.

Right now, he’s consumed by shame, not empathy.
He’s protecting what’s left of himself — his image, his identity, the fragile lie that maybe he’s not as monstrous as he feels.
He’s scrambling to control the fallout, to justify the unjustifiable, to say something that might stop the bleeding — but none of it lands. Because none of it is what she needs.

What she needs is remorse.
What he’s offering is self-preservation.

He Knows She’s Looking for Proof
Proof that this meant something.
That the love they shared mattered.
That the devastation in her chest has an equal in his.

She’s looking for him to name what he did — clearly, without excuses. She wants to see him weep for the trust he shattered, for the lies he spun, for the version of her he betrayed. She wants to feel like he sees her. Like he sees what he’s done.

And he wants to give her that. Desperately.

But remorse… true remorse… requires him to sit in the darkness without fighting it. And that feels unbearable right now.

Because if he really lets it in — if he really lets himself feel the full truth of what he’s done — he’s afraid he won’t survive it.
He’s afraid it will swallow him whole.

He Doesn’t Want to Be This Man
He knows this version of himself is not who she married. He sees it in her eyes — the disbelief, the disappointment. He hates who he’s become. But shame has a way of turning men into ghosts. Into cowards. Into contradictions.

He knows he should lean in.
He knows the silence is more damaging than the betrayal itself.
He knows that her healing depends on him showing up with honesty, grief, and responsibility.

But he’s stuck.

Not because she doesn’t matter.
Not because the marriage doesn’t matter.
Not because he’s unfeeling.

He’s stuck because right now, he doesn’t know how to face what he’s done without completely losing himself.

Maybe one day he’ll find the courage to stand in front of her and speak the full truth — not the cleaned-up version, not the one that protects him, but the version that honors her pain.

Maybe one day he’ll say:

“I see it now. I see what I broke. And I hate that I couldn’t see it then.”

But in these early days, he can’t reach for her because he hasn’t yet faced himself.
And nothing she says — no amount of tears, no righteous fury — can speed that process up.

He hates that.

But that’s where he is.

If you’re the one who’s been betrayed — if you’re waiting to see real remorse, real ownership, real change — it’s okay to want that. It’s okay to need it. You’re not asking for too much.

Just know:
His inability to give it right now has nothing to do with your worth.
It has everything to do with his emotional immaturity, his shame, and his fear.

You didn’t cause that. You can’t fix it.

But you can choose not to wait in limbo for him to evolve.
Your healing doesn’t have to wait for his remorse to arrive.

You are allowed to start moving forward — whether he meets you there or not.

You’ve carried enough.
You don’t need to wait for his remorse to begin your recovery.
Your healing starts the moment you decide.

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